~changed
Wednesday, June 30, 2010 @ 8:22 AM
hey readers! (:
i'm currently trying live-journal! (:
might go back to blogger.com, not sure though..
http://iam-abigail.livejournal.com/
anyone with live journal??!! might wanna add me.. hehes..
(:
Labels: i have a clear line between school and personal issues..
~my definition of innocence
Tuesday, June 29, 2010 @ 2:10 PM
innocence resembles the attitude and character of a child of 5 and below.
the way they ask for a cookie the way they say that they don't like this jiejie or korkor..
the honesty and innocence melts anybody's stone cold heart.
the only people who actually retain their child-like innocence would be those who are intellectually disabled, no offence, but don't you agree? i have a cousin who is intellectually disabled. he might be spoilt but at least what he does is from the bottom of his heart. (i think) he is not the only intellectually disabled person i have come in contact with. nobody above the age of 12 retains at least half of their initial innocence. absolutely nobody. sad to say,but it's true.
having innocence means that you won't be flaunting around. thinking that you've made friends by complimenting them.. having innocence means that you wouldn't mind someone who is worse off than you, being friends with anyone.. i'm not innocent cause i dislike you! i dislike you alot.. at first i didn't care much cause i don't know you well. but now, you're seriously getting on my nerves. you talk about how rich you are like a "rich" snooby jerk! you flirt like you dont care that you have a girlfriend.. thank God my ex bf isnt as bad as you! you remind me of rich snooby bitches and jerks! money so what? money big shit arh? i'd rather lead a pauper's life if thats what money is gonna make me into.. sad to say i know it wont cause i've been tested. (: *so proud* i'm proud of who i am, i'm proud of what i have. money or not i know i'm happy cause i make the best of what i have. so what if i cant go for annual holidays? so what if i dont own a prada heels? so what if i dont own gucci clothes? so? BIG DEAL?! yes, i do have branded things, but those are categorised under "charity case" -.- i dont like it, but what am i to do? i'm not a begger, i didnt ask for all those, they were given cause a certain someone wants to look big and charitable in front of those rich people. i dont beg, i dont brag! i'm not like you.. you make it seem like i'll b impressed by your stupid ways to flirt.
i'm not impressed! no rich guy.. snoobs. i've had enough to last me 10 life times. seriously... theres smthing you dont know anything about me, i doubt anyone knows.. mayb only a few. but even before then i didnt show off like you do..
Labels: innocence is determined by the way you react to situations
~too many things too little time
Tuesday, June 22, 2010 @ 2:16 PM
it has been so happening recently..
it first started during my 2 week break..
tableting workshop, BASF seminar, going back to school~~
and now that i've been back in school for 1 week, in the 2nd week now,
a few of us in the Pharmaceutica IG aka CCA is now on probation as either acting head, acting vice-head or acting secretary..
i've been given several task to plan already.. with seniors to guide of course...
but this time i feel that i'm more on my own compared to when i was in secondary school..
it's really stress cause i have people to answer to, whereas in sec sch the responsibily i held was so much lesser than what i am holding now... my hair is falling!
happening, yes... deprived of sleep, yes... no time to relax, erm... no comments... see less sunlight, definite yes!!! feeling scared for upcoming test, yes... darn..
i've been doing alright for school.. i just feel that i have got no time for myself.. be it to study, sleep, bathe or relax...
i'm falling asleep soon! if i'm given ONE wish right now, i dont want money, i dont want time with my friends, i dont want the best food on earth. I want more time so that i can sleep and re-charge myself so that i can perform better after that.. i just feel that i'm not giving my best cause i'm so disorianted and tired.. disorianted isnt really a problem cause i snap out of it easily.. tired is the main cause! >.<
i dream of a cool, soft bed, with comfy pillows and boster and a soft, thick, comfy blanket, raining and cool wind blowing in.. and i would be lying there under my white soft blanket~~ argh....... ............ oh gosh.. if i carry on i'll b sleep-typing..
science workshop later...
i'm really scared that i would collapse and then fail in my tests.. ):
i dont feel like crying though...
i just wanna sleep! really bad...
i can hardly stay up after 11pm now..
i miss writing in my diary.. ): my poor neglected diary.. but i've got no time! hardly have time to breathe not to mention poop and pee! haha (:
~sayonnara~
~what is it is what it is
Wednesday, June 16, 2010 @ 10:20 PM
i've been feeling full of emotions recently, so many things has happened..
it sucks cause i dont know where i stand, i cant seem to feel the two extremes of my emotions..
the poems i write suck.. i miss how i can sit on my chair with my hands on the keyboard and just type away and be satisfied with what i did.. but recently, all of those has changed...
i no longer wanna go away alone, cause the moment i wanna go away i wanna embrace myself with people.. what is wrong with me? too many chaotic things happening at the same time? or is it that i've shut myself out of it for too long? i get disorianted so easily and so easily forget a conversation that happened a minute ago.. it's as though i've became brain dead..
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so i sat by the quiet road side and watched the clouds go by,
out of the blue i heard a car horn and looked to my right...
a big blue car coming my way with its roof put away.
without a care i laid down by the fence with a brown horse behind it.
clouds passed as the seconds ticked away..
bright blue skies slowly turned to deep dark blue,
the stars are out.
THERE! a SHOOTING STAR.
eyes closed, hands together, i make my wish.
star light star bright, first star i see tonight,
i wish i may,
i wish i might,
have my wish come true tonight.
got up and left the place i stayed that day.
took a slow and peaceful walk to where i stay..
"BANG" was the last sound i heard.
i'm now lying down dead with a smile on my face.
blood flowing out of me and there, my heart stopped.
life's that short, that sudden.
who knows what might happen next?
love like you've never been hurt,
talk like theres no tomorrow,
learn like you'll live forever.
Labels: lifes short
~reminisce
Saturday, June 12, 2010 @ 10:56 AM
do you remember the cinema setting?
do you remember what you said to me?
do you remember where we went after the movie?
do you remember what we did after the move?
do you?
i know i do.
i remember so many things, too many things.
but now you dont seem to care..
well, explains why too.. since you've got.. you know.. yea.
actually, you've never cared..
so why should i bother reminiscing?
reminiscing..
my holidays have been fruitful! (: really enjoyed myself.
~sayonnara~
fear is once again in my dictionary
Labels: holidays is ending
~seminar
Thursday, June 10, 2010 @ 11:30 AM
i'm currently in school.. ushering pharmacist, doctors, professors, speakers from around the world. it's interesting.. (: with my new found friends here with me.. we went absolutely crazy yesterday! was taking all sorts of weird pictures! aww.. miss it.. today is the 2nd and also the last day of the seminar.. (:
let me start with yesterday..
yesterday... i was running up and down, running all sorts of errands.. well.. yea. so this german lady, Natelie, my first impression of her was firece, stern and such.. cause of the look she gave when talking.. but later yesterday a group of us were talking to her and i found out that she is really very nice.. one instance where "never judge the book by its cover" is appropriate.. so yea.. we talked and talked and found out that she is here alone in Singapore..
okay. blogging mood just died.. sayonnara! (:
Labels: havent had a chance to pen this down
~disorianted
Monday, June 7, 2010 @ 9:26 PM
I dont know what got over me today and i felt "not me" ..
it sucked..
but then...... ...........
I talked to a friend of mine from italy.. i havent met her in 10 years!
and although we've only met once, we wrote letters to each other and stayed in contact..
you know.. now, i've finally realised that friendship bonds arent that easily broken..
no scissors or knife too sharp, no oceans too wide and no quarrels too big to break it. (:
aww...
alright! time to spend time with my diary!
Labels: sono felice
