happy birthday to me!! (: haha (:

i wanna start my 17th year right... and end all childishness at the end of my 16th year.. on to 17!! yay (: a good start, a new beginning, a whole new me.. (: to be sanguine regardless of what happens. (:

sayonnara! ... ciao!... goodbye!...

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so far school has been alright.. XD
wow.. it's coming to the end of the week already... hmm..
well.. another 8 more days till my half anniversary.. [ how fast time flies ] (:
it seems like only yesterday i was on the phone with him and he asked.. haha (:
so far.. until this point.. not everything has been going smoothly for us..
we've so far encountered rumours.. peer pressure.. family pressure.. [ sigh ]
well.. 78 more days till i leave Singapore for Japan.. 79 more days till one of my dad's friend's son's wedding.. [ bless the happy couple ] and what else? another 40 more days till mid year.. gosh.. and 66 more days till O lvl MT paper.. >.<
goodness gracious..

*sayonnara



你是否真心的呢? 你那时说的每一句话都是真心的吗？还是你说说吧了？
我今天看到你，我非常开心， 可是，你也许没有看到我眼睛里的悲哀和失望。。。
也许你都不管了呢，也说不定。。 我那时未免太天真了。。
不如你告诉我吧。。 我错了吗？我是否是傻的。。 只有你可以评评理。。
因为只有你直到逝世。。

以前活泼好懂得陳明丽呢？死了吗？

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star light, star bright, first star i see tonight..
i wish, i may, i wish, i might, that my wish my come true tonight..
that i might get i want most.. (:

alright... enough of making wishes.. (:
[ 4more days to make things right to start it right!! (: ]
well... first day of school today... XD
not a bad start though... hmmss...
lets just hope that this moment of pause would do us more good than harm..

*abigail signs off



i scared... i'm afraid..
i know it might be true.. cos' i recognise this feeling of fear..
i fear the worst.. honey please be alright..

*i'll post again after i return from the gallows..

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I'd rather not be with YOU than be with you..
I'd rather be crying my hearts out than be smiling throughout with you..
I'd rather starve than eat fanciful dishes at fanciful places with you..
why?! because I'm gonna prove you wrong!! I'm gonna make you eat your own words!!
I'll show you what an NA student can do!! Apparently, you think that you know what's best for me.. See! you THINK.. you dont KNOW..

money money money.. is that what is MOST important?
power power power.. is that what is MOST necessary?
money and power.. you have them all.. but you misused them!! -.-
I am not for you to use them on.. do i look like a lab rat to you? -.-
why must, in fact why should I put on a smile for you?
why should I pretend that I owe you gratitude?
why should I pretend that I enjoyed every outting with you?
all because I dont want to disappoint the person I love most,
I dont wanna disappoint the person who is the most important to me..

*Abigail bids goodbye




i just went through my old blog..
and i just deleted..
**sigh!! doesnt anyone tag anymore? goodness gracious..
ohwell.. nothing much today though..
all i did was study study study!!!
gosh... kinda tired.. i mean whos not these days? -.- imagine the workload our children will get!!
hmm... i wanna rest liao!!!

sayonnara








why did i have to believe all those "lies"?
were those lies you told me? or the truth?'
sweet talking are nothing but lies to make me happy..
if i believed in all those sweet talk i would have killed myself long ago.. -.-

why do guys even bother to court girls when it's so short lived?
seriously?!

i just dont see the reason behind it..
i messed up twice, big time!
true that.. bitten once, not shy.. got bitten again and now what?
i didnt regret making that decision..
i didnt regret getting into this holy mess..
at least now, i learn..

9days to start anew.. but what can i change in 9 days?
desperately finding myself once more.. i wanna get back to being my good old self..
where tomorrow is left a mystery..
and today's surprises scare me..
and yesterday is left as it is..
all i had to care was today.. not yesterday and not tomorrow..

indeed i have learnt..
to depend on myself..
to let go of yesterday(s) and hold tightly onto tomorrow..
to stay in touch with today.. and make the best out of it.. (:

Labels: 9 days to change what needs to be changed..

feeling kinds sick now.. and to you: i really wish you're actually calling to ask how am i recently.. i really wish that you would be here taking care of me.. >.<>

oh well.. Abigail arh Abigail.. tsk tsk. well.. march holidays? got holidays meh? muggin' all the way... and gosh is the weather killing me.

yay!! changed blog song!! XD

Saturday, March 14, 2009 @ 2:00 PM

i'm so so so so so satisfied with the way i have cleaned my room!! and of course re-organise it.. XD
so yea.. i was going through my messy room when i chanced upon this book.. "poems of love and friendship"

so here i go.. i'm gonna type out is particular one i love.. XD

what is love?
no words can define it.
it's something so great only God could design it...
wonder of wonders,
beyond men's conception,
and only in God can love find true perfection.
for love means much more than small words can express,
for what man calls love
is so very much less, than the beauty and depth
and the true richness of God's gift to mankind
His compassionate love...
for love has become a word misused, perverted, distorted and often abused.
to speak of "light romance"
or some affinity for a passing attraction
that is selsom much more than a mere interlude
or inflamed fascination,
a romantic fling of no lasting duration...
but love is enduring and patient and kind. it judges all things with the heart, not the mind.
and love can transform
the most commonplace into beauty and splandor and sweetness and grace...
for love is unselfish, giving more than it takes,
and no matter what happens love never forsakes.
it's faithful and trusting and always believeing,
guideless and honest and never deceiving...
yes, love is beyond what man can define,
for love is immortal and God's gift is divine!

*strangers are friends we haven't met*

Wednesday, March 11, 2009 @ 7:49 PM

has my worst fears passed?
or the worst as yet to come?

i'm half hearted i know..
i dont know what to do..
at a moment i really want to..
but in a spilt second i would refuse to..

i know how i feel..
i just dont know what i want..

Tuesday, March 10, 2009 @ 7:04 PM

go ahead and be immature for all i care.. you dont dare squeak in front of him! and trust me.. i dont need him to back me up! gal, anytime anywhere confront me and ask whats wrong, i'll tell you, in fact i might demonstrate to you whats wrong.. -.- [ you know who you are, i'm not abt to "tarnish" your rep.. dont make me ]

the most immature thing you people could ever think of.. goodness gracious.. and fancy yourself being so worked up about this MINOR thing!! wake up la.. please! calling MOE? humph! and honestly? you dont care if you cause someone to lose her job? well.. i care! you think that you're the only one with problems? get lost! this group of you.. you people dont even dare squeak! speak up! why? cos' i'm small you wanna "pick on me" ? seriously, if you think i wld support your immature protest carry on dreaming! why in front of him you'all dont dare to talk? why? scared? and let me tell you once more! i dont need him around for me to b able to win you in a confrontation.. you've got your kaki(s) so?

fancy you allowing your anger to get the better of you.. you should know better.. -.-

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Saturday, March 7, 2009 @ 10:55 PM

woo!! this year's bbq was definately more enjoyable!! XD
well.. met munyee at about 5.30pm at senja then we headed down together to evelyn's place where almost everyone was already there..
then at about 6pm we started the fire.. XD heess.....
and then MAKAN!!!

shiok!

sayonnara

p.s have one more of this gathering one more time this year!!! chalet mayb? hees

@ 1:02 PM

hmm... kinda bored today... but going for BBQ later!!! (:
heees.... well... so far that "problem" of mine.. is.......... more or less "settled" XD


i miss those good old days...

Wednesday, March 4, 2009 @ 8:08 PM

tell me what to do will you?
i'm frustrated! confused! i dont know what to do!

readers help me out! please..
you're given two choices...
1. to give up something you love a lot, because it's causing chaos in your life
2. to continue dealing with endless chaos and HOPE that things would go smoothly soon...
tag to answer.... please please.... i'm so frustrated i dont even know who i am anymore..

abigail is dead at the moment..... the old me is gone... what is happening?

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Tuesday, March 3, 2009 @ 5:55 AM

just thought i do a quick post! XD
happy 5th monthsary to ____________ and ______________ (:
haha!! you know who la.. i dont need to elaborate!! XD
gotta say it wasnt easy coming this far.. and gosh with the additional stress from school!!
it makes things harder to work with! goodness gracious!

gotta say that last week was a really really tedious week!! but! it's finally over!! (: yay.
so many things happened.. fights and patch backs.. just within 5 days can you imagine?!
accumulating work load.. accumulating stress! hmm... at times i just dont know what to do..
and i wish that you would be here like you used to.. gosh... >.< hols =" no">
pause time!! i wanna go back to october 8th 2008!!! when N lvls just finished!! when i thought i had a lot of time... XD

gotta go to school already.. (: happy 5th monthsary!

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Monday, March 2, 2009 @ 4:34 PM

woots!! a whole new week!! yeah!! XD
so happy!!! YOU should know why... cos' cos' cos'..... tomorrow is the 3rd of march!!!!!! XD
yeah!! happy happy!! and yea.. you're right. i should take each day as it is.. one step at a time..
to Jasmine: i didnt make the wrong decision.. neither did i make the right decision, i dont know yet. i wanna know, so i'll finish walking this road! XD

abigail loves YOU!! <3 03102008

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