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Hello Everybody!
My name? Abigail (:
My age? turned 18 on March 27!
What am I up to? studying in Republic Polytechnic, majoring in Pharmaceutical Sciences.
What do I love? photography, reading, friends, writing
About me? I am... ...
EXTREMELY emotional, this is different from PMS! (:
Friendly (: cheerful+optimistic=sanguine
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i feel drained of all my energy
Friday, March 19, 2010 @ 9:24 PM

it seems like i'm the only one who was robbed of my trust.. it seems like i'm avoiding you.. it seems like history is repeating itself... although we've known each other for over a year.. but so what?? either i'm reading you wrong or you're being very clear with your actions.. thats it! i dont care if it wouldnt come true after i let-it-out.. afterall, it doesnt matter.. what does the picture above tells you? happy girl? strong girl? optimistic girl? i am.. i know i am.. its just a matter of where my breaking point is... but it's apparent that i've passed my breaking point a long time ago.. i've became an emotionless girl.. just an empty shell.. it is said that when a person loses trust in another, it simply means that the other has also lost trust in that person.. i trust many people, friends, family, bestfriends, classmates, schoolmates, teachers, etc. however, when an ordinary friend becomes something else the trust is gone.. no.. i'm not good enough a catch for any guy.. it was just the thought of a friend of mine who has changed boyfriends like changing clothes in her closet.. so, one day i asked her, "dont you get sick of all those lies?" and her simple answer was "he is going to be my last" ... like.. where have i heard that before.. no offence to those who are attached, but its just a pack of lies.. now you see why i dont trust after stage one... the hurt was unbearable, the honeyed coated words repeating in my mind constantly, reminding me of all the lies i believed.. i was no doubt gullible, naive and stupid to the utmost extend... no physical hurt just the usual, typical emotional hurt.. so yea, my friend's way of operation got me thinking..

~sayonnara~

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